„From the moment I drew my first breath, I was left to fend for myself. The world was a battlefield, and I was a lone soldier. Those who should have been my allies turned their backs on me, leaving me to navigate the treacherous terrain of life alone. As a child, I was ignored and deserted when I needed guidance and support the most. But as I grew older, those same people who had once abandoned me now sought to control my life.
I am weary of your fragile ego, of the way it shatters at the slightest hint of criticism. I am exhausted from the constant control, the incessant demands dictating what I should do, how I should do it, and when. Your understanding of responsibility, accountability, and independence is woefully lacking. You are like a puppeteer, pulling at my strings, attempting to make me dance to your tune. I am a marionette at your mercy.
You have all the time in the world to delve into the mysteries of history, to learn about cars, aliens, animals and so on. Yet, you can’t spare a moment to understand the humans you share your life with. You are so engrossed in your own interests that you fail to see the people around you, their needs, their feelings, their struggles.
Your actions have caused me pain, a pain that I have often borne in silence. But on the rare occasions when I gather the courage to speak my truth, to voice my hurt, you retreat. You withdraw when your frustration peaks because I refuse to submit to your physical desires. How many times have you left now?
When your basic instinct drives you back to me, remember this: I had to suppress my feelings, knowing that I was with someone who neither understood nor appreciated me. I had to do things that I detested, things that went against my very nature.
You have never acknowledged my achievements, never given me credit for anything significant. Instead, you criticize and dismiss my pain. It’s not the language barrier that’s the problem; it’s your primitive approach. I won’t be fooled again.
And here’s something for you to ponder: I don’t need someone to constantly reassure me of my worth. I need someone who doesn’t persistently undermine me, someone who doesn’t insist that I am bad. I need someone who sees me for who I truly am.”
The passage you’ve just perused is a sneak peek into the complex plot of a novel I am meticulously crafting, titled “i, Marionette”. This piece of literature plunges into the stormy voyage of its main character, an introverted individual with no self-esteem who is unceasingly fighting for self-rule and validation in a world that appears resolute to undermine them.
This tale, “i, Marionette”, stands as a tribute to the human spirit’s tenacity. It’s a chronicle that delves into the main character’s unwavering quest for freedom, their battle against the puppeteer’s strings that seek to govern their actions and predetermine their fate. The main character isn’t simply a character in a story; they embody resistance, serving as a beacon of tenacity in the face of manipulation and dominance.
The narrative also underscores the main character’s resilience in the face of constant undermining. Despite the hardships and adversities they encounter, the main character does not seek external validation or acknowledgment. Instead, they strive to maintain their self-worth and dignity, even when those close to them fail to see it. This denial of recognition is met with determination, as the main character refuses to let others define their worth.
“i, Marionette” is a touching dissection of these diverse themes, including manipulation, denial, and resistance, offering readers an unfiltered glimpse at the main character’s struggles. It’s a tale that pledges to strike a chord with many, inviting them to contemplate their own experiences of self-reliance, dignity, and perseverance.
As the writer, I am devoted to bringing this narrative to fruition, to sharing the main character’s odyssey with readers globally. This journey is not just about the main character’s resistance against external forces, but also about their rebellion against their own doubts and fears.
I do hope you like it.
Thank you so much for taking the time to dive into my words. It's been an absolute privilege to entertain your curious mind.
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Credit video, audio and pictures: most are mine, some are from Pixabay.